Current Mood: happy
Current Music: say ok vanessa hudgens

so there is only 3hours until the jeremy campconcert.
isnt that exciting?
im pumped
and very tired.
stupid sickness.
but i wanna give him a hug and take a picture with him.
id be like wah-zow!!
haha
random words are amazing.
but yeah only 2 hours and 56 minutes now.

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: JEREMY CAMP!

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: tears in heaven:tim mcgraw

so there is this boy.
he goes to my school.
and i like him alot.
i want to tell him that i do,
but im scared to.
what if he will never talk to me again?
or what if he thinks im weird since i told him.
maybe im being paranoid.
what do yall think i should do?
<3him

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: only hope:mandy moore

so today was a pretty good day.
i dont even know why.
i mean...
its not like anything good happened today.
but nothing bad happened.
and thats a first for the past couple weeks
and everyone was in a good mood.
so that just made it better.
well i hope yalls day was as good or even better than mine. 
cuz mine was great!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: california:hawk nelson

soo i try to please my mom and make her proud of me the ebst i can but it seems like nothing will work.
i try EVERYTHING!
i just dont get it
i wish i could read her mind and just know what i have to do to please her and make her happy.
lately she ahs just been in a bad mood everyday and it seems like she takes it out on me.
i mean she doesnt abuse or hit me in aany way
and she doesnt verbally abuse me
but its just...
i dont know.
it seems like she absolutely hates me.
sometimes i think if she even wants me here.
my brother and sister have told me tha i was an accident
but i never believed me
maybe i should i dont know.
i guess im here for a reason or else God wouldnt have made me an accident..
i just wish life would be easy and wasnt so difficult
and aggravating.
i wish life could be MY way,.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: face down red jumpsuit apparatus

i dont understand what i have to do to please her.
all day when she is at work i was working my butt of cleaning house just to get some praise for doing something to help.
she gets home i wait 30 minutes for her to say thank you.
finally i say did you notice anyhthing about the house being cleaner?
and she said yeah
i said well your welcome cuz it took 3 in a half hours.
she says thanks
but she didnt even mean it
i said i even mopped and she said well im gonna mop over it so she pulls out the mop and starts mopping
then i said i vacummed too
she said i can still see stuff on the floor
she pulls out the vacumm and starts vacumming
then shes trying to put the playpen up and i cant get through the hallway 
so i just ist there and wait
i dont say anything
i go to  help her and she says 
FINE ILL MOVE OUT OF YOUR WAY STEPH!
i said gosh i was just gonna help you
she said WELL I AM SO SORRY!!
i said mom what made you in such a bad mood this time and her reply is...
I COME HOME WANTING TO SIT DOWN AND RELAX AND WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO I HAVE TO CLEAN!! I HAVE TO CLEAN THE FLOOR BY MOPPING I HAVE TO VACUMM CUZ YOU DIDNT GET IT ALL AND NOW I HAVE TO PUT THE STUPID PLAYPEN UP!! AND I HAVE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS COMING OVER TONIGHT AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT WE'RE EATING FOR DINNER!

i say well sorry i thought i would be nice and try to help out by cleaning your house and all you do is not even say thank you and complain

i start walking off with tears coming to my eyes

she says

im going to the store!

i think thank god!!

Current Mood: angry
Current Music: none

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: stay beautiful-taylor swift

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: over you-chris daughtry